Missing

Tomorrow marks the 7 year anniversary of my sister Heather's passing. I will always know how long it has been as a week later I found out I was pregnant with Ethan. When I look at him (Dylan and Sophie too) I realize how much she is missing out on and it is HARD!!! Logan is the only one with any type of memory of her and even that is very vague. He does have one toy she brought him after his first surgery that we will always have. McKenzie has a bunny from her 2nd birthday that will always be extra special as well. We also have pictures, but for the youngest three that is all they are, just pictures of someone they never knew.

After 7 years you would think that my anger would fade but it hasn't. I am still SOOOO mad at her for not taking care of herself and dying. I know it was not all her fault but I also know that she didn't take care of herself as she should have and it lead to her passing at 24 years old.

Now we are just left missing her and she is missing out on 10 nieces and nephews she never met.

If there is a positive out of this whole tragedy it is that I did gain a sister. Rachel is Heather's best friend and now she is my sister. I love her and her family and am so grateful for them!!!